38 Weeks Pregnant!

‎38 Weeks and a HUGE Belly.. :) I keep bumping into things because I am not used to having to worry about if I will fit through the doorway!!!!!

The following is off of a website with info about being 38 weeks pregnant. 
"Your baby has really plumped up. He weighs about 6.8 pounds and he's over 19 1/2 inches long (like a leek). He has a firm grasp, which you'll soon be able to test when you hold his hand for the first time! His organs have matured and are ready for life outside the womb.

Wondering what color your baby's eyes will be? You may not be able to tell right away. If he's born with brown eyes, they'll likely stay brown. If he's born with steel gray or dark blue eyes, they may stay gray or blue or turn green, hazel, or brown by the time he's 9 months old. That's because a child's irises (the colored part of the eye) may gain more pigment in the months after he's born, but they usually won't get "lighter" or more blue. (Green, hazel, and brown eyes have more pigment than gray or blue eyes.)"

If he makes it to 6.8 pounds that will truly be a miracle. Right now I see every day as a miracle having him inside me and feeling him move. A year ago I was still preparing for the possibility my body would not take to the fertility. Thank you Jesus :)

It is really crazy to think of all that can change within a year.  Changes can quickly happen within a moment for that matter.   Looking back in my life on the day my parents separated and my Mom asked of my thoughts on moving to California.  This is the same day my teacher pulled me out of class and told me I need to pack up my desk so I can move to California (little did I know it was without my father).  Talk about rocking a 9 year old's world.  Another time a huge change in my life occurred was after I made plans to meet a dear friend for lunch.  Shockingly enough, the same day of our lunch, a different friend called me and told me she was in the hospital due to diabetic shock. Then only a few days later I attended her funeral.  These are only two examples of quite a few changes in my life.   You would think I would be more prepared every time my life changes.  Yet I am not, it is amazing how much we as human beings fight change.  Of course it is not all horrible change that has happened in my life.  For instance, my son coming into the world, is an exciting change, yet it scares the crap out of me...  LOL....

I guess, sometimes maybe fast change is better because waiting for him to come is killing me.. and I am not just talking about that pain I am having here.  I am talking about the anticipation of the cleft, the thoughts of being a good mother or not, the nightmares I am having of messing him up, will he love me as much as I know I love him already, and so on..... 

And yet think of how many times we go through the monotony of life, hoping for some kind of change and when it comes we freak out...  because it is not always good or it is "too" good to be true that something is going to go wrong..  Ah well.  I think we just need to love and be excited and see what happens next.  Look at me the control freak talking like this lol...  We shall see how I do....

Can't wait to meet my Samuel Gerard...  I am in love already :)