Saturday, September 24, 2011

38 Weeks Pregnant!

‎38 Weeks and a HUGE Belly.. :) I keep bumping into things because I am not used to having to worry about if I will fit through the doorway!!!!!

The following is off of a website with info about being 38 weeks pregnant. 
"Your baby has really plumped up. He weighs about 6.8 pounds and he's over 19 1/2 inches long (like a leek). He has a firm grasp, which you'll soon be able to test when you hold his hand for the first time! His organs have matured and are ready for life outside the womb.

Wondering what color your baby's eyes will be? You may not be able to tell right away. If he's born with brown eyes, they'll likely stay brown. If he's born with steel gray or dark blue eyes, they may stay gray or blue or turn green, hazel, or brown by the time he's 9 months old. That's because a child's irises (the colored part of the eye) may gain more pigment in the months after he's born, but they usually won't get "lighter" or more blue. (Green, hazel, and brown eyes have more pigment than gray or blue eyes.)"

If he makes it to 6.8 pounds that will truly be a miracle. Right now I see every day as a miracle having him inside me and feeling him move. A year ago I was still preparing for the possibility my body would not take to the fertility. Thank you Jesus :)

It is really crazy to think of all that can change within a year.  Changes can quickly happen within a moment for that matter.   Looking back in my life on the day my parents separated and my Mom asked of my thoughts on moving to California.  This is the same day my teacher pulled me out of class and told me I need to pack up my desk so I can move to California (little did I know it was without my father).  Talk about rocking a 9 year old's world.  Another time a huge change in my life occurred was after I made plans to meet a dear friend for lunch.  Shockingly enough, the same day of our lunch, a different friend called me and told me she was in the hospital due to diabetic shock. Then only a few days later I attended her funeral.  These are only two examples of quite a few changes in my life.   You would think I would be more prepared every time my life changes.  Yet I am not, it is amazing how much we as human beings fight change.  Of course it is not all horrible change that has happened in my life.  For instance, my son coming into the world, is an exciting change, yet it scares the crap out of me...  LOL....

I guess, sometimes maybe fast change is better because waiting for him to come is killing me.. and I am not just talking about that pain I am having here.  I am talking about the anticipation of the cleft, the thoughts of being a good mother or not, the nightmares I am having of messing him up, will he love me as much as I know I love him already, and so on..... 

And yet think of how many times we go through the monotony of life, hoping for some kind of change and when it comes we freak out...  because it is not always good or it is "too" good to be true that something is going to go wrong..  Ah well.  I think we just need to love and be excited and see what happens next.  Look at me the control freak talking like this lol...  We shall see how I do....

Can't wait to meet my Samuel Gerard...  I am in love already :)

Friday, September 9, 2011

My Son the Comedian

Well the great news is Samuel was 5 pounds as of Sept 2 and the specialist was very happy with that.  And my OB says that if I go into labor they won't stop me.  So I guess that means they are happy with all. 
As for the cleft.  This is where people say well he is probably shy.  Well I am not so sure.  I think God is telling him not to show us.  We are supposed to just trust God.  Whether a small cleft, big cleft or no cleft at all.  God is in control and He will be with us the whole way through.  God has been there for me my whole life but at times I forget that all will be ok.  Life has not been easy, but God has always shown He has been there.  So I feel that God once again wants us to remember that no matter what our future holds, He will be there.  Plus how shy can he be if in every ultrasound the first thing he is willing to show is the fact that he is a boy?  Really...  no that is not shy, that another reason I know my son is a comedian and that he is working with God to show that there is a reason we are not allowed to see the whole extent of the cleft.

I know he is a comedian for that reason and this, I am not allowed to sit in ways I find comfortable or have my arms or stuff resting on my tummy.  He kicks or punches until I move or move it away and then he stops and is fine.  He seriously cracks me up already.  I am loving him sooooo much.  Can't wait to see what other stuff he tries to pull on us as he grows up.  I know I am so going to have to work on not laughing my head off as he tries to get away with stuff on us.